Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Half of nothing

Hazel turned 6 months old this past weekend. Getting past that sentence to write an actual post about her has taken days. This child has me captivated. I am anxious and nostalgic. She makes me want a thousand more babies just like her and not even one more because she is my baby.



Six months is big. It is as if everything is just coasting along with a "new" baby in the family and within a week I am planning her baptism, swapping out car seats, buying bibs and sippy cups, catching her from falling backwards when she sits up, and trying to make her as comfortable as possible while teething. Wait, hold up, weren't you just in newborn clothing a week ago? Now I have three kids who need food?



Much to my dismay, Miss Hazel is super interested in food. It started with the occasional lip smacking during our meals but turned into straight obsession when she started following the food from our plate to our mouths. So, last night she got roasted sweet potato. And she loved it. Her smile spread from ear to ear as she saw her sisters watching her do what they were doing. And then my heart just shattered on the floor. And I immediately nursed her.

But the truth is, she wants in. She wants to be eating and moving and laughing and rolling around with her sisters. When I hold her she lunges forward towards them. She sleeps through the night and sometimes just wants to be laid down to stretch out by herself. She sits up and looks out the window in the car. She is reaching for EVERYTHING! I no longer have to worry about leaving her with her dad for two hours since they discovered Cheers! together. Evidently, when I am gone, all it takes is the theme song to send her to lala land and I come home to her passed out on her daddy. She is killing me gently.



Hazel Magnolia, I don't know what you have done to your mother but I am entranced. I will do my best to help you learn and grow and blossom while simultaneously choking back tears. You have been nothing but pure joy since your first day here and all of your family is completely in love. You make everyone around you smile and just feel good. You are sunshine my love.




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